my heart is an open palm, exposed and raw
In my land of bright lights you are effervescent -
Overwhelming at once, I am oblivious the next.
You are the palpable product of words I never meant,
Of clouded judgement, infinite dreams; my sweet Regret.
My conscience weighs you down and embeds you
Somewhere in the murky depths of this sepulchral soul.
Yet there is little want of redemption for what I do,
And you and your kind maketh the stories I never told.
Even now I would sing that I am yours, Yours!
As I believe you are mine in all your tainted forms.
Sucker as I am for your taste, touch and allure,
The beauty of folly is not weeping when all else mourns.
So this is an ode to my ill-fated penchant for
Secrets I have to keep, and everything that
I loved to hold but not to possess.
That I wish to forget, but forget to regret.
Sunday, July 24, 2005
you know, the theory about the brain's ability to function at its maximum for only an hour is so true. i tried it earlier, all because of seung hoon, and true enough my mind was tuning in to my poddy not my notes after an hour. so now i know, not to study for more than an hour at a time. right.
church was alright today, khaing's min prolly going back this friday. let's jes say my relationship with him is like a rollercoaster ride. we went from strangers to jamming buddies, to great friends till the extent of others thinking he had a crush on me (sheesh) and then there were the occasional wedgies driven between our friendship. but we always managed to become good friends again. then it started to take a turn like last year. this year it plummeted down because of stuff, so yeah now it's kinda in the dumps. but really, i don't hate him at all, i jes feel like slapping him most of the time. somehow, he has that place in my heart as one of those friends i'll never forget. guess i'll go send him off this friday, hope its the afternoon flight.
after church was mass pigging out session. i had this prata sausage thingy (yes iggy, your prediction about me pigging out came true), cheese burger, shared fries and a lemon tea with hwei. and i had two curry puffs, this small pizza bread thing and a slice of chocolate cake in church. when i came home, i drank vitagen, had this huge version of stikko thingy. i bought a mudpie too and it's waiting for me in the refrigerator :D well there's pe tomorrow and tuesday so screw the diet.
i'm never ever gonna buy markers again, because i bought like a hundred of them jes now. hurhur you know those marker sets, yeap. yanibunny will be delighted, but nah i wont bring them ALL to school you know.
i feel bored. i think i should pray and mom's not home yet, okay so i should go pray soon. toodleloo*
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